Hate Me, Love Me. I don't care.

Ok hey! New topic again. Yeh. So about the title "Hate me, Love me. I don't care." yup it does relate to me. Well, few days ago, I was suffering thru frustration and friendship problems. I never cried that hard before. It's like I cried from morning until the class finish. It's really tiring after you cried and you'll probably will get headache. Why I cry? Because of friends. They talk bad about me, hate me, used me, treat me like a maid. I had enough of this. Do you actually know I'm suffering since I was 13? Now I'm turning 15, can you just don't be so childish or use ur common sense and think about what will happen if the person knows the truth? It will hurt them so badly that they will think negative thoughts. This happens to me but I never think of Doug stupid things. You know why? Because the bible says we have to forgive people, I forgive them for hating me, talk bad about me. But why can't they just think for a minute how bad it will be if you do this kinds of things to your friends? It's been 3 years and yet you keep all the secrets from me. If you dont like me, you can just tell me you dont like me, my attitude or whatever, I don't mind. It's better if you tell, because I can change my bad habit. But you guys are not even telling me! Always act like you friend with me, actually inside your heart you all all saying those foul languages like "Fuck you la, shut up la bitch!, go away!" right? Right now, this is not in my life anymore, there are no true friends, you hate me, just go ahead and hate me. I don't care. I have god with me. :)